You will vanish into nothingness here

I started this blog because I feel like I cannot maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. I need a place where I can truly be myself, because the people in my world have no idea what a bottomless pit of misery I am.
bookmania: The Harry Elkins Widener Memorial Library is Harvard University ‘s flagship library. Built with a gift from Eleanor Elkins Widener, it is a memorial to her son, Harry, Class of 1907, an enthusiastic young bibliophile who perished aboard the Titanic. It had been Harry’s plan to donate his personal collection to the University once it provided a suitable alternative to the outdated and inadequate library then located in Gore Hall. Mrs. Widener fulfilled her son’s dream by building a facility of monumental proportions, with over 50 miles of shelves and the capacity to hold over three million volumes.

bookmania:

The Harry Elkins Widener Memorial Library is Harvard University ‘s flagship library. Built with a gift from Eleanor Elkins Widener, it is a memorial to her son, Harry, Class of 1907, an enthusiastic young bibliophile who perished aboard the Titanic. It had been Harry’s plan to donate his personal collection to the University once it provided a suitable alternative to the outdated and inadequate library then located in Gore Hall. Mrs. Widener fulfilled her son’s dream by building a facility of monumental proportions, with over 50 miles of shelves and the capacity to hold over three million volumes.

Wish…you could turn off the questions, turn off the voices, turn off all sound.
Yearn…to close out the ugliness, close out the fithiness, close out all light.
Long…to cast away yesterday, cast away memory, cast away all jeopardy.
Pray…you could somehow stop the uncertainty, somehow stop the loathing, somehow stop the pain.
Act…on your impulse, swallow the bottle, cut a little deeper, put the gun to your chest.

—Ellen Hopkins

fuckyeahtattoos: This is my newest tattoo. Yes, it’s a Star Wars quote. Specifically an excerpt from the speech Yoda gives to Luke in The Empire Strikes Back. “Size matters not. Look at me. Judge me by my size, do you? Hmm? Hmm. And well you should not. For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. You must feel the Force around you; here, between you, me, the tree, the rock, everywhere, yes. Even between the land and the ship.”   I wanted it on the arm I used to cut. I wanted it near stretch marks. We’re not our bodies, our pasts, or our image. Humans are capable of incredible feats, both sinister and divine. When this quote is taken out of context, it can mean so much. Plus, I love me some Star Wars.Done by Jay at Aenigma Ink in Kitchener, Ontario.  

fuckyeahtattoos:

This is my newest tattoo. Yes, it’s a Star Wars quote. Specifically an excerpt from the speech Yoda gives to Luke in The Empire Strikes Back. 

“Size matters not. Look at me. Judge me by my size, do you? Hmm? Hmm. And well you should not. For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter. You must feel the Force around you; here, between you, me, the tree, the rock, everywhere, yes. Even between the land and the ship.”  

I wanted it on the arm I used to cut. I wanted it near stretch marks. We’re not our bodies, our pasts, or our image. Humans are capable of incredible feats, both sinister and divine. When this quote is taken out of context, it can mean so much. 
Plus, I love me some Star Wars.

Done by Jay at Aenigma Ink in Kitchener, Ontario.  

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